I Can't Keep On Like This

I don’t know why… but today I decided to sleep early. Which is weird… cuz usually in holidays, I used to stay up late at night, reading Sophie Kinsella’s masters.


But today, I feel different. Sad, I suppose.

I will always hate nighttimes… when you lie on bed, ready to go to sleep, do you feel lonely? Do you feel sad and angry? Well, I do. And I don’t know why. Because of this, I maybe will cry myself to sleep… and go to school will lazy, worn- out and red eyes. This is so not cool. At all. And sometimes, my best friends will go worried and ask me, “Why red eyes? Did you cry yourself to sleep last night?”

I hate it when they’re worried. It adds stress to them. They sympathize me cuz they care. And I care for them, either. A lot.

My family doesn’t know about this. None of them know about this. Not even my mother. Haiz… as you can see, I’m more close to my girlfriends than to my family. *Faint smile*

So what if I think that school is better than home. You got friends around us… you got teachers that actually care. You got more friends than your family members. Now that’s exciting. 

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This song is for all my ex-schoolmates. I love you all, especially those who had been with me when I’m facing a hard time. You know who. We had been through so many things: thick and thin… Sweet, bitter…  I still remember last years’ Children’s Day. It was truly a BLAST! With Michael Jackson dancing next door… and all our favorite songs booming in our ears, I know that that day… it’s our day… that we’ll NEVER ever ever forget!

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Grew up in a small town

And when the rain would fall down

I'd just stare out my window

Dreaming of what could be

And if I'd end up happy

I would pray (I would pray)



Trying hard to reach out

But when I tried to speak out

Felt like no one could hear me

Wanted to belong here

But something felt so wrong here

So I prayed I could break away



[Chorus:]

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly

I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky

And I'll make a wish

Take a chance

Make a change

And breakaway

Out of the darkness and into the sun

But I won't forget all the ones that I love

I'll take a risk

Take a chance

Make a change

And breakaway



Wanna feel the warm breeze

Sleep under a palm tree

Feel the rush of the ocean

Get onboard a fast train

Travel on a jet plane, far away (I will)

And breakaway



[Chorus]



Buildings with a hundred floors

Swinging around revolving doors

Maybe I don't know where they'll take me but

Gotta keep moving on, moving on

Fly away, breakaway



I'll spread my wings

And I'll learn how to fly

Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye

I gotta take a risk

Take a chance

Make a change

And breakaway

Out of the darkness and into the sun

But I won't forget the place I come from

I gotta take a risk

Take a chance

Make a change

And breakaway, breakaway, breakaway
 

 

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